W3: The War Within

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Apathy can be one of the biggest enemies of consistency and creativity. It's weird to be creative and consistent on one hand while battling indifference and apathy on the other, but it does happen. One reason can be because life gets in the way. Another reason can be because time gets taken for granted. A third can be because it's easy to just say, "I'll get to it in a little bit." All of a sudden, "a little bit" becomes "later on" and "later on" becomes "damn, I still gotta do that, huh? Oh well, whatever," and when the latter comes, it's trouble.

One of the most important aspects of my life is learning how to maximize each minute of the day while getting rest. On one hand, there's the "I'll sleep when I die" mantra, which powers the 4 A.M. workouts every single day and serve as fuel to be the greatest at whatever professional hat is worn at that particular time. At the moment, that hat is in higher education, so being the greatest at my position in this profession is something that I am absolutely determined to be. On the other hand, a brother does get tired, and even though "I'll sleep when I die" sounds good when Jeezy says it, that's simply not realistic.

Wanting to become a better friend, a better brother, a better writer, a better person; all of that involves maximizing every minute of the day and seizing the moment, not just waiting until the moment feels right. Consistency v. indifference. Creativity v. apathy. It's one hell of an internal battle and one that is being waged right now.